That First Scan

The first time you see your tiny baby in the sonogram, its just a blip. A small dot like structure in your womb that will grow into a baby gradually.

At my first sonogram appointment, as the doctor pointed out at the cluster of cells, i wondered what our baby would be like. Like really... i know its all science and babies of all living beings grow from just a few cells. But when you see your own baby's sonogram at this early stage, you can't help but wonder about this miraculous transformation of some microscopic cells into a ready-to-pop-out mini human.

At this time, when pregnancy symptoms are non existent, looking at the sonogram makes your pregnancy feel more real. Its like knowing that there is God out there but if suddenly you get to see him; you realize that yes, he is there for real! 

Slowly this new feeling settles in. In its own time! Especially with soon to set in nausea, those high-on-hormones-mood-swings, that strangely increased sense of smell and that all-the-time-tired feeling; you surely know you are pregnant!


Budding Mom.
20- August-2016 

Life after the BIG NEWS!

Yes, we are expecting! And yes, it will be our first!! 

And we are as much scared as we are happy! Talking about me, i am on an anxiety trip. Between my personalized list of do's and dont's and those frantic google searches, my mind is an emotional mess. There are so many feelings at the same time that its overwhelming. I am happy, nervous, scared, teary eyed, anxious and happy again. Its like a tsunami of emotions.

As soon as you discover the big news, you just stop thinking about yourself. Its all about that tiny winy baby, who is now a constant and a living part of you! Not really breathing at this time, but very much alive! Its strange in a good way that you are not alone at any point of time and are responsible for this budding little life. The world suddenly feels like a happier place; full of hope.

Though giving birth is the most natural thing to mankind and i shouldn't be behaving like i am the only mother on this planet! But yeah, in my head, right now, i guess i am! All my attention, my energy, my routine everything is about the mother that i have become! I am concious about every step that i take, every little bit that i put in my mouth and every little sign that my body sends me. Motherhood, truly is a different world! Its a fussy world, where you fuss about everything that's happening to you and everything that's not, but its special. This whole feeling is something! 

So yeah, amidst all the nervousness, its a happy world. The good man in my life has become even better. Asking me over phone if i am feeling okay. Or if there is some grocery to be bought!
Just keeping my fingers crossed and hoping for the best! 

Budding Mom.

12-August-2016