Yes, we are expecting! And yes, it will be our first!!
And we are as much scared as we are happy! Talking about me, i am on an anxiety trip. Between my personalized list of do's and dont's and those frantic google searches, my mind is an emotional mess. There are so many feelings at the same time that its overwhelming. I am happy, nervous, scared, teary eyed, anxious and happy again. Its like a tsunami of emotions.
As soon as you discover the big news, you just stop thinking about yourself. Its all about that tiny winy baby, who is now a constant and a living part of you! Not really breathing at this time, but very much alive! Its strange in a good way that you are not alone at any point of time and are responsible for this budding little life. The world suddenly feels like a happier place; full of hope.
Though giving birth is the most natural thing to mankind and i shouldn't be behaving like i am the only mother on this planet! But yeah, in my head, right now, i guess i am! All my attention, my energy, my routine everything is about the mother that i have become! I am concious about every step that i take, every little bit that i put in my mouth and every little sign that my body sends me. Motherhood, truly is a different world! Its a fussy world, where you fuss about everything that's happening to you and everything that's not, but its special. This whole feeling is something!
So yeah, amidst all the nervousness, its a happy world. The good man in my life has become even better. Asking me over phone if i am feeling okay. Or if there is some grocery to be bought!
Just keeping my fingers crossed and hoping for the best!
Just keeping my fingers crossed and hoping for the best!
Budding Mom.
12-August-2016
